Got through it

The first holiday without Dave we got through.  It was pretty much as challenging as I thought it would be.  There were moments when we thought we wouldn't get through, then were other's that had an easy flow.


We met for Quesadilla's which is what we going to eat on the 14th; the day that was to be the collective party and turned into the shock of Dave's passing.  We had a birthday cake for Zach and talked to Dave's wife about where she is at.  I know how hard this is for me sharing 44 years with him.  I can't begin to imagine her experience, he was her everyday.. wow.


I still haven't had a day when my cheeks have been fully dry.  I wonder if today is that day?  It's only been 25 days without him.  I'm still smelling the cigarette smoke occasionally, but it has eased way off from what it was (this has been a sign to me as I quit smoking in 2012... Dave was a heavy smoker especially since he had lost his job in Jan).  He doesn't feel as close as he did a week ago though.  People say he'll say with me so long as I need him to.   It's a nice thought. 


I know he's in a better place, pain free and that in itself is wonderful.  But being here, with all of the pains left, and problems yet to be solved is overwhelming.


I guess this is how we learn.  How we are forced to move ahead.


One moment.  One breath at a time.


I'm in awe of our time shared, feeling so blessed to have had him around yet at the same time feeling so broken and wonder when that will heal.


Thanks for listening.

Yogini roller coaster

I faced my fear yesterday albeit with my eyes closed some of the time on this:



Actually it was around 220 feet that I had to close my eyes. I realized there would only be about 15 seconds left until it was all down hill - that part was fun. But man was it scary.

It's 125 klm/hour at a 75 degree descent.

When I shared this with students a few of them said, "That's not very Yogic of you!"

Well..here's my take

Life is all about present moment awareness....you MUST be present at 125 klm's an hour relying on shoulder straps or lap belts to keep on the ride (funny how we put so much trust in those things).

Besides...It is neither good nor bad, it just IS.

All such a wonderful illusion

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How to experience a miracle and free gifts

I was having coffee with a friend the other day. She asked me how many times I'd heard the saying, "We control our reality."

"Over a thousand times," I told her (at least).

She continued to share how bad things had gotten lately; life wasn't unfolding as she wanted it. Her relationship wasn't what she wanted and her pocketbook wasn't either. She had an idea of how to change all of it but fear was stopping her dead in her tracks. Can you relate?

I recalled something I had read recently. André Gide once said, "Man can not discover new oceans unless he is willing to loose sight of the shore." (Women too.) It was a lightbulb moment for her. Maybe it is for you also?

Once you shift your perspective you can create significant change in your life.

Buddha knew this. Many other great teachers, like André, knew it too.

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It will help you reprogram your brain. Then you can experience miracles and take control over your reality. There's free gifts too! Even a bonus offer from me.

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Thanks!
Tammy

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